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  • Janvier

    September 22nd, 2022

    Let us never speak

    of the fractured china,
    nor of the swans

    or the lamb
    and the rosemary.

    Let us never speak
    of Beckett’s grave

    or the ruined bicyclist
    and the dog in the air,

    of the mercury light
    and the mosque,

    of the skin of your thigh,
    of my white shirt.

    Everywhere the air
    seemed lighter, and you,

    I watched you, dancing
    in the terrace window

    like a girl
    in any spring.

    –The Agnes Poems

  • Novembre

    September 22nd, 2022

    Imagine a shape eased from perfect marble
    in the white light of a November noon,

    or drifting through mist on a thatch
    of sycamore leaves. Both of you, from

    hips to plinth, at the sauntering center
    of something we all wonder at. Not everything

    needs right angles. So let us rethink this:
    the feel of the sheets that first night,

    the whitefish, courgette and viognier,
    your arm holding on, our hands,

    that kiss on your cheek as the Arabs watched.
    Yes, I must touch you to see you.

    –The Agnes Poems

  • Agnes

    September 22nd, 2022

    I.

    During this humid month
    the hummingbirds hover
    like small angels,

    and Agnes goes to Rome
    in a long, light dress.
    What should one think?

    It is only now we see
    the goldenrod is also blooming.
    It will be hot like this

    until October when
    everything softens to
    orange.

    II.

    In the hard hills
    of this our lost place
    we gather lavender and sage,

    then evening opens,
    there is that closing
    of the fragile sky.

    We sit together in
    a kind of garden, there
    is musical water,

    there are shapes
    of things without shadow.
    It seems impossible.

    III.

    In my very small
    dream, I lift her dress off,
    she is like a slight bough,

    like a limb that bends
    in sunlight.
    We pull each other

    close. Outside the street
    makes its noisy song.
    Then we dance,

    if one can call it dancing,
    our slow gathering
    in another deep sweetness.

    –The Agnes Poems

  • And a nap

    September 19th, 2022

    She had become more conscious of her cycle during her time with Paolo; his powers of observation were rigorous. After only a few months together, they had it all plotted out: there was the quiet time from day one to ten, then the days of the egg, and finally, as the estrogen ebbed and her progesterone surged, what Paolo called the danger, a designation Whitney didn’t much like, for it was associated with many bruising collisions, and there was no way she was owning all of it. 

    It’s our dynamic, she always countered.

    Yes, day twelve, the time of the egg, and on her bothersome way to work—across the piazza, south to the lungarno, then a couple of blocks downstream, where on Tuesday and Thursday at the museo she assisted Signorina di Nero, assistant directoress of public information, as unwelcome a mission as she could conceive for day twelve, when she was not just irritated and distractible, but also beginning to vibrate with acute sexual arousal. What she needed today was a man on top of her, a good thrashing, lunch with vino and a nap.

    —The Italian Novel

  • Average Beauty

    September 19th, 2022

    She once read something about the psychology of beauty. What, if anything, can be said about what we find attractive in others? She couldn’t any longer remember all of what she’d gleaned but a few things still came to mind: There was in the first place rather surprising consistency across cultures regarding good looks. This was so even when it came to groups that were very isolated. Men almost everywhere preferred women with high foreheads, larger eyes, fine noses and cheekbones, full lips, and curvy forms. All such qualities are linked to estrogen levels and greater fertility. No surprise, they are also concentrated among women in their early sexual maturity. 

    Whitney, for better or worse, possessed most of these characteristics, but one. The principle of the average. It’s also the average that is preferred–average large eyes, for example, average full lips, etc. Women are found less attractive in direct proportion to any augmentation over the average. And Whitney was a little too curvy. She had her father’s shoulders and grandmother’s heavy bottom. To be sure the general impression she projected was still that of a good-looking woman, but she was conscious of being distinctly flawed.

    —The Italian Novel

  • The contrapasso

    September 19th, 2022

    After a moment an arm was raised up front, the director handed the person a microphone, and it was asked whether the professoressa could put such images of hell in a more general context. . . .

    Next Paolo himself put up his hand.

    Grazie. Uno discorso meraviglioso, he began. My question is about the idea of sin in all of this. It is a long time ago, so I remember only one of Dante’s damned, the adulteress.

    Francesca, the professoressa named her.

    I’m sure that’s right. Her torment is to be forever blown in a terrible tempest.

    Si. Francesca da Rimini. 

    There was something disturbing about her fate, Paolo went on. It seemed she felt deeply for her lover. But there she is in hell suffering eternal punishment.

    Yes, she answered. I understand. But for Dante, whose idea of sin is something like Aquinas’, the sin lies not in love per se, nor even the illicit love of the adulterer, but in the excess, just as the sin of gluttony consists of an excess of an otherwise natural human drive, namely to eat. It is always some excess that damns Dante’s sinners.

    —The Italian Novel

  • Her Big Bang

    September 12th, 2022

    Paolo called it her cosmic microwave background, and it seemed not so off the mark. It was the end of her first year at Dartmouth; she got pregnant. After a few weeks of heart-wrenching decision-thinking, she terminated it, an act as irreconcilable with her Christian upbringing as having had pre-marital sex in the first place. 

    The cosmic microwave background, as best she understood, was what the universe looked like just after the Big Bang–looked and still looks like, because of course one can even now look up and across billions of light years to that time. Light travels fast but not fast enough. So if you look far enough you can see it still, the shape of things just after the Big Bang, this and the pattern of everything following that first universe of superheated plasma–the dense sectors, the diffuse ones.

    As it was in the Beginning: getting knocked up freshman year was her Big Bang.

    —The Italian Novel

  • Syzygy

    September 8th, 2022

    Had he not been an astronomer, he might have come that day to believe that the stars really do shape our fate, that there are critical oppositions, baleful conjunctions, heavenly things align and one thief is saved. Yes, whatever stars govern secrets–secrets and their unravelling–they had come into that once-in-an-eon syzygy to disclose to him not just one but two unknowns, one rather more personal than the other, but both the kind of revelation that changes everything.

    —The Italian Novel

  • Stuck

    September 8th, 2022

    There was also a kind of stuck in her writing itself, a condition not entirely attributable after so many years to having had so little time for it. Her one interest was memoir, the story of her own life—her formation as the daughter of small town fundamentalists, her intellectual awakening as a student, her first marriage to a soldier—but she had now been working on the thing for almost twenty years, writing and rewriting, casting and recasting, dozens of sketches snipped from life, evocative, she thought, each compelling in its own way, but despite her best efforts never finally adding up to anything more than a laundry basket of disparate scenes, affective color, and social rumination.

    —The Italian Novel

  • The museo Galileo

    August 31st, 2022

    She had begun to have the impression as she approached the museo that it was a prison. At first it was just that the boxy palazzo resembled one, but as the weeks wore on her time there came to feel like deathly servitude, hours, days shut away from life, emptied of everything but meaningless time-killing make-work—answering email from the assistant directress, who sat at a table not more than two meters from her own; small meetings with people from other museo offices for the coordination of everyone’s time-killing make-work; and worst of all, the great emptiness at the center of it all, the planning of the Galileo anniversary for a small tribe of wealthy patrons and museo leadership in order to reproduce an institution that contributed almost nothing to the public understanding of its eponymous hero.

    —The Italian Novel

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